and, yeah...

round here.



seing them in august (hopefully).
I miss them so much.
<3

P.S. I get my fucking varsity letter tomorrow!
P.P.S FIVE MORE DAYS OF SCHOOOL! :]

xo, Lauren.

Keltie, you're amazing. Yes, I realize that my a is bass-ackwards and that hers is on her finger. Just a little inspiration. lol


I kind of really want this as a tat.



+my playlist
1. Free Ride- Edgar Winter Group
2. Cloudy Night- We All Together
3. Crazy on You- Heart
4. Don't Stop Believing- Journey
5. Nine In The Afternoon- Panic
6. For Me This Is Heaven- Jimmy Eat World
7. The Joker- Steve Miller Band
8. Northern Downpour- Panic
9. Killer Queen- Queen
10. The Ballad of John and Yoko- The Beatles
:]
have a good week!

P.S. (lest edit, I promise ;) I had another user dream, 'cept in this one I was totally hitting the bowl with Brendon Urie. Weird, right? haha

and one more...



if the snow weren't there, the look on my face would fail so bad. hahah.
enjoy!
xo, Lauren

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4. What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

disturbia. soulja boy e.e
that shit.

I'm almost done with eclipse. yay.
I forze my ass of today. I walked in the fucking 28 degree weather just to get out of the house. e.e
and guess what?
IT'S SNOWED ALMOST EVERY DAY FOR THE PAST FOUR DAYS! It doean't stay too long, but it's still cold and wet.
I hate the cold. I hateeeeeeeee it.

I'm going to bed, guys. peacee
--Lo

Edward was a vampire.


fer sure. <33

I'm on book two.
New Moon
I LOVE ITT.
even though it's sad =/

Heh. So if feel like i'm shunning you, don't. I've seriously been WAYYY too absorbed in this book, than could possibly ever be healthy. I probably won't be ont he computer much for the next... ehh... two weeks? I thik that's about how long it will take me to read the Twilight series, in its entriety. I'm fucking hooked.
So seriously txt me and we'll catch up :]
<333333333333
iloveedwardcullen.

haha. I just went there.
bye.
--Lo

Winter is returning, and my seasonal insomnia is just starting up. It's always worse in the begining with the time change and the man made jet-lag. Something about this year just seems so different than every other. I feel more like things are going my way, and less like the entire world is against me. It's a feeling that I'm content with.
So I've finally decided that I can't handle basket ball. Not with being exausted like this every day. I just can't do it. I'll now have guitar once a week, and pulsar club- along with homework and other things. I really just need some me time.
Candace is supposed to pick me up a copy of twilight. I'm excited to read it, and that says a ton. The last book that I was this excited to read was the perks of being a wallflower, and I easily finished it in two days.
I think I'm going to start writing more; broadening my horizons. With Obama as president (YAY!), it's certainly a time for change. I'm going to have straight A's from now on. And now that I've said it, I'll do it. Just like meeting them. Once the mind gets set on doing something, there is no stopping it.
I wrote a story yesterday, which I (admittedly) haven't done in a while. I'm venturing from panic slash to the cab slash. I think it's much more interresting ;D. Oh course, there's singer and cash, and marshall and Ian. Then... there's just Johnson and his chiquita bananas.

Speaking of, I had a dream of savanna telling Jonhson that she'd, "Chiquita on his banana any day..." o.o




*cringes*
I quess that's all for now.
--Lauren

 

I'm on my way

 

It's beautiful.
But it's not for me.

Guitar lessons HOPEFULLY start Friday.
I want to go where everyone goes. I want to know what everyone knows.
I want to go where everyone feels the same
I'm making these dreams come true one day at a time :]

 

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.
:D

yesss I do.


best show ever.

I gave them the bracelets that cover the scars I've been trying to hide for a year. That means a ton.

<3

AND! Though I may someday "wish I hadn't wasted so much time obsessing over IMMATURE bands", I don't care.
That day MIGHT come, but I'm definitely not going to rush it.

Homecoming game today. YAYYYYY!I get to chill with the besties and maybe watch quarantine or saw five :DDD
Powder Puff pwned. Tie between the freshmen/sophomores.


:]]]
Happyhappyhappy friday!


P.S.
The birthday= sunday.
WOOOOHOOOO!

Oh my god. So you think you're better than everyone because "you don't like panic anymore. that's awesome, but grow the fuck up! you don't have to KICK people out or your life because of it. seriously. you obviously never deserved my freindship anyways. and yeah, I will stay out of your life. don't worry about that. i hope the other TWO HUNDRED (?!) people don't care as much as I did.
I'm deleting your number and burning the fucking bracelet, because I sure as hell don't want it.
peace the fuck out, bitch.

SO AFTER A COMPLETEEEEELY SHITTY DAY, I COME HOME AND READ THISSS.



;DDDDD
I'M SO PSYCED!

make these shitty days go away =/
only you can do it.
--Lo

I'mfallingheadoverhealsforyou.

Why is this so hard on me? I've tried writing... but I can't. I've tried everything. You take the words out of my mouth. I love this bittersweet feeling. The thing is, I hate throwing myself out there. I hate <b>trying</b> to get you to notice me. I don't want to have to get drunk or high for you to notice me. I'm a fucking freshman. I don't know. Seriously. I want to get to know you more. For me. Not because I want to get into your pants. Not on a dare. For me.
I think we couldl be a great thing. I really do.

I've been jumping from the tops of buildings.
For the thrill of the fall.
Ignoring sound advice.
And any thought of consequence.
My bones are shattered.
My pride is shattered.
And in the midst of this self-inflicted pain.
I can see my beautiful rescue.

I'm falling more in love.
With every single word I withhold.
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word you say.
I'm falling head-over-heels for you.

I've been dancing on the tops of buildings.
At the top of my lungs I'm singing you a song.
Don't you leave me alone.
My bones were shattered.
My pride lays shattered.
Well I'll trample my pride and tell the whole world.
To dance with me.

I'm falling more in love.
With every single word I withhold.
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word you say.
I'm falling head-over-heels for you again.

I'm crying out.
"Wash my hands, these bloody hands Lord. Open my mouth and I'll sing."

I'm falling more in love.
With every single word I withhold.
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word you say.
I'm falling head-over-heels for you.

I've been dancing on the tops of buildings.
With you.

Yesterday was mountain magic, and of course I had to go; it's a tradition. I put on an ankle brace and walked downtown just in time to see the vendors packing up. Stuff like that makes me wonder why I want to leave. It's so simple here and I love it. I've pretty much lived here all my life (aside from a year in lauderdale and a year in roanoke) , and I didn't start complaining until I got wayy into music. Sure there are southern people. Okay. Wayyy southern people. But the terrain and weather are great. We have four seasons here. Not just hot all the time, and not just cold.

I'm a walking contradiction.

It's quaint. My front yard is dancing in the wind, along with the grass that I haven't yet gotten to. I miss the summer. I miss it, yet I long for the snow. Seasons change and people don't do too. What happened? You left me and thought you were better than me. Hmm. That sounds familiar. Don't come back. Ever.

Now, nights are growing longer and days are growing shorter and I'm growing thinner and my ankle is growing bigger. Nothing can ever be the same. I need someone. Not you. I need someone new. Someone who doesn't know anything to base their opinions on. So somebody, please move to this small town. I hope you know who you are, because I don't.

From coast to coast, I'll make the most
Of every second I've been giving with this crowd
Without a doubt, you're all I dream about
At night we lie awake
with stories taking us back to the nights we felt alive
The nights we felt alive

I would've married you in Vegas
had you've given me the chance to say I do
Could I make it anymore obvious?
Could you be anymore obvious?

So I miss...
You. and you.
and you and you and... maybe you.
But not by any means YOU. You're the worst best friend in the history of the world, jsyk.
Go. Just fucking leave because NONE of us want you here anymore!
You're a waste of breath and a waste of time. Who could have guessed that you'd be the one to turn the tables? Victom one day, criminal the next! HA! You're a joke.
You've wronged those that had wronged you in the past. SO who's more guilty? Hmm. I'm going to go with you. Just because you're all
"I met this guy, Then this other guy, and I'm going to the movies with this other guy!"
Just stop.
Seriously, everyone hates you now. So have fun with the ones that exiled you for a year.
Oh trust me. Things are going to be shaken up from now on. Believe me.
I'm only warning you...


P.S.
YOU! Desi, you're one of the you's that I miss. I LOVEEE YOU!
I know you're busy, so let's chat sometime :]
<333
--Lo

Ever since friday, I've been mildly obsessed with all the band/ people at the concert.
I can't get over the fact that I didn't much like Boys like Girl. They're a fantastic band.
And so are the friday night boys. And they're local! I want to get them to come to roanoke so badly.
GO TO THEIR MYSPACE AND DEMAND THEM IN ROANOKE VA! Even if you're not from around here ;D

So, I guess 11:11 wishes do come true sometimes.
Friday at 11:11 am, I wished that I'd meet Shaant. And I did.
That man is so sweet, I can't even tell you. He was so cute in his socks on stage xD
I love him <33
I will meet him again.

no matter what it takes.

I fall down to call down the small town boys.
there's no telling who told them to burn all the toys

I dropped this beat and fell into the heat of that
of that, that imaginary treat.
they're treating this disease with such certain ease
that the seas fell to their knees and stopped the usual flow

if I let go real slow then maybe only I will know
with head and foot and toe on tow
can you spell 'two' without the 'O'?

this superior show only stops so it can go again,
my friend I'll send that bracelet at ten
when I get the stamps, that maybe you could lend?

this tremendous tree is toppling over
and there's a blood stain on this CD's cover
covering the clover that's clinging to the paper

will you act to hide the fact
that anyone that fucks up can't bounce back?
or will you stack more sacks on you back,
until your ego matches those pounds that you'd lacked?

it's cold in here and there's nothing to hear
minus the screaming and shouting from the beer
be sure not to worry; she's like this all year
surely there's nothing you need to fear.

this cacophony and monstrosity are both misrepresenting
waiting for fermenting and and inventing cementing
there's nothing to do, but keep on presenting
because these are just words; I'm only venting




maybe my four month long writers block is over?